Is there anything you feel too old to do anymore?
Ok, I’ll bite – what am I too old to do anymore? People! Not that people are “wrong” or I am a misanthropist. I like people. But only in small amounts.
I find an “encounter” with a person very draining. That is a real interaction which is not transactional. To put it another way, to see a person as an end in themselves and not a means to an end for me. Not what I can get out of the interaction but what I can give to the other person as a person and not an object. Yes, I can transact business with people – I can go to the shops or get a coffee and not freak out. But I do not want to transact with people, I want to encounter people. And that means I can only take so much!
That sounds like a backhanded compliment to myself!? It has taken me a long time to work all of that out. Aloness, for me, is not about the evil of people but rather about being ready for the goodness of people.
Sorry if that makes no sense.
this solitary life 
I love talking with other people, even strangers. I find that 90% of people are eager for a little personal communication.
On some other occasions I just want to be left alone.
I guess we are all a little of column A and a little of column B.
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Your thoughts are so similar to someone I know 🙂. Which got me into searching for some answers. People mostly are not presenting their true nature, maybe that’s why they leave you drained?! One doesn’t know when they are switching from fakeness to real. They have become assembly line products, asking same questions and giving same, predictable and safe replies. One minute you sense some potential in them to get you interested, then soon enough, they can leave you disappointed.
Maybe it’s best to rewire the brain into not expecting anything great or unique from people. Not take them so seriously either. Just thinking aloud here..
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