vocation?

Life has changed and I am wondering (again) about my vocation.

So this morning some thoughts:

First, I have to learn to not lose me in my vocation. I am not my vocation. My vocation unfolds the me that God loves (wills). A vocation unfolds from the inside out.

Second: My vocation is this place. To be anchored here. My vocation is to be here. To be enclosed. I do not prepare for a vocation outside. This place is my vocation.

Third: To over-control that is a mistake. The form would become the end.

Fourth: And wait! In uncertainty!