Category: Personal

Day 4 – forgetting

Another day, another sleep. If only there was an Olympic medal for sleeping.

I did read more of The Castle, a little of The Five Wounds of Jesus by Williams, and I had a really good browse through the St Gegory Prayer Book. I had all these crazy insights that I have since forgotten. Forgetting! It is an interesting topic. S. Augustine speaks of it in The Confessions. The fact that I can remember not remembering.Perhaps just losing my mind?!

I ate yesterday – a major step forward. I made arrangements for next year. And I did manage to catch a little of the cricket between naps.

marks of the Passion

One night the devil appeared to St Martin [of Tours] crowned with gold and gems, and in a magnificent vestment sparkling with jewels. ‘I am come in judgement’, he said, ‘Adore me.’ ‘Where’, asked Martin, ‘are the mark of the nails, the piercing of the spear, the crown of thorns? When I see the marks of the Passion I shall adore the Lord’. The devil disappeared.

Day 3

Another day! Nearly halfway through this period of isolation. And, to be honest, if I was not sick, this would be heaven.

Yesterday, I did manage to read. I read parts of Kafka’s The Castle, which I had not read before, some of Kierkegaard’s Two Ages and Sickness unto Death, and a little of I am Dynamite. Kafka is always interesting, as he is just so weird, and the two Kierkegaard books pick up the same themes. But I know how K. feels!

And I slept. I tried to listen to the cricket and slept through most of the play. (I was awake for the rain delay!)

Tomorrow is Ember Wednesday in Advent, so I hope to return to praying liturgically. My food order should arrive today, and I have started some beans in the slow cooker – my staple for most days. I did eat a little yesterday. What is it with me and food? Also, today is not as hot as yesterday.

I do not have a title for this post. No insights yesterday. Well, there were but they are private at the moment. Have a super blessed day!

Day 2 – adjust

Yesterday was Day 2 of my Covid isolation. This is the first time I have missed Sunday Mass in a long time. I slept, listened to the cricket, and then slept some more. I would like to be able to read or do something constructive. But at the moment, all I can do is sleep. (At least I am good at one thing!)

It was strange not to go to church. But it was also a relief – no stress or anxiety. I am hoping that I might be able to take a permanent step back and just attend occasionally. Adjust!

That is the word for this week, adjust. My strict routine has been turned upside down. I have no energy to cook so I have not eaten much. (Ok, that is not unusual for me.)

Today will be hot – into the 40C in some areas of the state. So, hide with the air-conditioning on. On top of that, I think I have a fever (which I had last time I had Covid), and my medication makes me sweat. And I really dislike being hot. (Entendre!)

I have been unable to pray, apart from calls for Jesus to return. But today might be different. Live in possibility! I will have a cup of coffee and sit up for a bit. And then reconsider and adjust!

Day 1 – Covid

I have Covid. It is the second time. Not as bad as the first but still a little more than annoying.

So, I thought I would keep a journal of these seven days alone. Today (Day 2) will be the first Sunday Mass I have missed since I last had Covid.

Yesterday (Day 1) was a day of sleep. I woke feeling awful, so I thought I should take a Covid test. No surprise, it was positive. And before you ask, I have no idea where I caught it. I took my medication, went back to bed and slept most of the day. I did order food from the supermarket which will be delivered Tuesday.

So, what now? I think I will take my medication and go back to bed. Yes, reading would be great but I just do not have the mental energy at the moment.

maybe?!

Daily writing prompt
Is your life today what you pictured a year ago?
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I don’t remember what I thought a year ago, but I think the answer is “no.” There have been many changes this year, some easier and some unexpected. If there was perfect future vision, what would life be like?

The reality is that I live now. I feel stable and balanced. Yes, I could be doing better, but I could also be doing a lot worse.

do you believe in aliens?

Completely random question! The first thing that hits me is “believe”. What does it mean in this context? Perhaps I will leave that question for another post.

Absolutely. I think there is intelligent life outside of Earth. All the theological questions aside, why would God only create humans here? And, to paraphrase Bill & Ted, why would movies lie to us? An encounter would raise some interesting questions concerning our assumptions.

Anyway, do you believe in aliens?

everything

Daily writing prompt
What is one thing you would change about yourself?
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Everything! I have never liked “me”. I would not say I hate me, but I do not like me. If I were to meet me, I would most likely think I am aloof, prickly, and just plain weird. I am also socially and physically awkward, like to rant about completely random stuff, and am a poor dresser. I should say that I am working on it, but that would be a lie.