name dropping?

Daily writing prompt
If you had to give up one word that you use regularly, what would it be?

Not a “word” but a borrowing of authority. I like to name drop: Kierkegaard, Macquarrie, or some medieval collection of anchoritic texts. (See, I did it again!) Or, the worst of all, “the church says”. And, by doing so, I think I use the power of the person quoted as my own.

It comes from a deep-seated feeling that I always must be the “smartest person in the room”: to dominate with intellect to make up for the overall disappointment of me. Yes, I have a good memory and sometimes a clear picture of an idea, but I know I use it to dominate and escape my own anxieties and fears. And often I do not want to tell people what I mean in case they think less of me.

So maybe the “word” I should give up is “so-and-so says”. And replace it with “I think …”. Take ownership of what I say and not hide behind another person.

scars

Daily writing prompt
Are you holding a grudge? About?

I do not come into this house empty. I have scars. And some of those scars are hurts I cannot easily put aside. So, yes I do hold grudges.

I am not proud of it, nor do I think it is productive, or healthy. Yet I need to be open about the scars that I carry into my relationships, especially my relationship with God. And then live in hope!

enclosed life

Daily writing prompt
Share a story about the furthest you’ve ever traveled from home.

I live an enclosed life – my home is my vocation. I do leave. Shopping and helping family are the primary reasons. I also have health appointments.

Enclosed, in my context, does not mean legally imprisoned. I am called to live my vocation in one place, The Anchorage at the moment, and not to live here to prepare for something else. It is an act of love and self-sacrifice.

Home Sweet Home

Daily writing prompt
What does your ideal home look like?

I feel I should write about the philosophy of an “ideal” and how that applied to me. But I am not.

My ideal home is the one I am living in right now. It is the fullness of my dreams. It has a library and a chapel. It is close to church and the shops. It is the right size and the right age.

A home is different to a house in that it expresses relationships. My home is within a community that has set aside this house for me. So it is ideal because it expresses my relationship to the community and allows me to express my relationship with God.

BTW: I recall writing about this before?!

books

Daily writing prompt
What brings a tear of joy to your eye?

I want to say something meaningful like world peace, a child’s love for their parent, the beauty of nature, or a beautiful piece of music. But the reality is that a book is most likely to bring a tear of joy to my eye. Not any book! A book that I desire for its content. I have a few with pictures in them and they are nice too. Yet nothing beats a good book with “mind-altering” content.

why not?

Daily writing prompt
Why do you blog?

Why would anyone not blog? It is a form of expression. A way to learn to order your feelings, emotions, and affections. It is “journalling” for a digital age!

That being said, I do not blog for others! I used to write for the “hits” – optimise the SEO and share “secret” information. I blog for me. I like the process. I like the technology (and, hence, I use WordPress). I like these prompts as they make me think and look more closely at my daily life.

So, why do I blog? So that the “me” in me can express itself.

About me?

Daily writing prompt
Interview someone — a friend, another blogger, your mother, the mailman — and write a post based on their responses.

So the simple answer is “no”. The longer answer is “nooooooooooooooooooo”. (And, to be honest, I want my blogging streak to continue so I am answering differently.)

I interact with people only via email (and occasionally text). So, in place of an interview, read my About me? page.

honestly?

Daily writing prompt
How are you feeling right now?

It is early in the morning and I am having a cup of tea – so I am feeling ok. But, to be honest, I have struggled. I had a dentist appointment yesterday and that was extremely stressful. I am worried and I am prone to overthinking.

But there is another side: sometimes before the light comes the darkness. Sometimes in the struggle, I have clarity. Sometimes the decision to move on is also a painful decision to surrender the past. I can only control “me”.

a place

Daily writing prompt
What daily habit do you do that improves your quality of life?

I should say something religious like prayer, meditation, or mental prayer. All of which I do and it does improve my daily life.

The habit is no habit but a place. The place that most improves the quality of my life is “The Anchorage”. It is the place where I live my vocation – my enclosure. I am “me” in this place. I need to return, feel the absence, and am drained by being away from this place.

Maybe I should say that this habit is really a habit!?

absurdism

Daily writing prompt
What was the last thing you searched for online? Why were you looking for it?

I google different things during the day: TV cast for shows that I am watching or the background of an author. But the last thing I searched for online is “absurdism“.

Why? It is just part of the things that make up my life. I was preaching this week and wondered afterwards how close it was to absurdism. Still not sure!

Most searches end up in a rabbit hole. One article leads to another and then another google for a new concept. And before I know it, an hour is gone.