now

Daily writing prompt
Tell us about a time when you felt out of place.

To be honest, I feel “out of place” all the time. I should have been born 100 years ago in a country far far away. But I doubt that would be the answer. No change of circumstances, culture, or religious group will magically fix my sense of alienation. Trust me, I have tried!

Experience has taught me that every person, no matter how kind and loving, has their own baggage. We have within each of us a point of privacy we call “me” – no connection to the outside, completely cut off. And this point of “me” is always alone, “out of place”, an alien. (Or, as Augustine says, is out of place until it finds a place in Jesus.) Maybe I simply profoundly feel that “me”!

to be silent

Daily writing prompt
What skill would you like to learn?

I would like to learn real silence. Not the absence of noise. But the single focus on the Other. Not my option or view, not my “answer, but simply to listen to Jesus in the moment. I am not sure that is a skill or a divine grace but I can start by being less involved. That is, less involved in my misguided world and open to the holy in the other person.

Most of all I need to learn to not want to be listened to. To become irrelevant. To be the person with the answers and knowledge. I want to learn how to be forgotten!

Sorry if that sounds a little airy-fairy, self-indulgent, or even a “backhanded” boast.

wait in hope

Daily writing prompt
What details of your life could you pay more attention to?

Solitude and prayer!

I could pay more attention, become more intentional, concerning my periods of prayer. In the past, Anchorites had a book of people they prayed for daily. In some monasteries, it is part of the liturgy to read these names everyday. I could have more time for mental prayer during the day.

And maybe be a little more protective of my solitude. To be open to periods of silence and simply “be” in the moment. Not to worry about being “productive”. Not to chase the next “book high”.

To wait for the Lord in hope. Not to rush or seek to do it myself. To listen to myself and do what I preach.

Anyway, I have a doctor’s appointment so …

going into the desert

Daily writing prompt
List three jobs you’d consider pursuing if money didn’t matter.

I am delighted where I am “at” right now. I like the context for my “vocation”. So no changes are necessary at the moment!!!!!

But I have thought about “going into the desert”. Could I live completely off the grid? Without contact, without modern communications. I often feel I am still way too much in the world – still too entangled. I have absolutely no idea how that would happen. And I am certain it would be a real struggle for me physically and emotionally. But sometimes I wonder!?

Wish you were here

Daily writing prompt
What’s your all-time favorite album?

This is pretty easy – Pink Floyd’s Wish You Were Here. It is the first album I purchased with my own money on cassette. It was in the original blue case, and I played side 2 nonstop. But I remember being absolutely freaked out by Welcome to the Machine.

I still listen to it most weeks. Now, it’s on some streaming service, and I still like the second half better. And I am still completely freaked when I hear the lift open.

holy days

How do you celebrate holidays?

Holy Days are celebrated with Te Deum at Morning Prayer and Second Evening Prayer.

One of the things about living alone – being solitary – is that days fade into each other. So I am glad for the liturgical year that reminds me of important events and people. I like that time is regulated by Jesus.

others and me

Daily writing prompt
Do you see yourself as a leader?

I am no leader. I lack the interpersonal skills, the confidence, the insight, and the prudence to lead. My thought pattern is too confusing, And let’s face it: a little on the eccentric side. My emotions get involved too quickly and everything becomes a reflection of “me”.

That does not, however, mean that “others” do not see me as a leader. It is a position that I have been pushed into through circumstances – a completely unwarranted and unwanted position.

So …. no!

abstraction

Daily writing prompt
What’s your favorite word?

Not sure I have a favourite word. But I like “abstraction”. Here is a small definition from John Locke (the philosopher, not the character on Lost):

‘So words are used to stand as outward marks of our internal ideas, which are taken from particular things; but if every particular idea that we take in had its own special name, there would be no end to names. To prevent this, the mind makes particular ideas received from particular things become general; which it does by considering them as they are in the mind—mental appearances—separate from all other existences, and from the circumstances of real existence, such as time, place, and so on. This procedure is called abstraction. In it, an idea taken from a particular thing becomes a general representative of all of the same kind, and its name becomes a general name that is applicable to any existing thing that fits that abstract idea.’ (2.11.9)

Why? The idea is somewhat central to one of Kierkegaard’s later books, Two Ages. And, methinks, it is pretty important to understand some modern ideas and issues.

different levels

Daily writing prompt
How do you relax?

I want to post something like taking long walks along the beach. The reality is that I rarely relax – there are just different levels of anxiety, and then sleep.

Reading and music help. Being alone is always a good start. Early morning is better than late at night.”Home” is much better than away. If not possible, a small group of people is better than a large one.