I have been sick – not much sleep for the last two days. I am not sure how well my medication is working – I guess I will know when I get withdrawals. Anyway, I dreamt last night that I was walking into a church – a nondescript building which I somehow knew was a church. King of strange as I have not been to church for six weeks. There was no person in the church but a hymn was playing:
All to Jesus I surrender,
All to him I freely give;
I will ever love and trust him,
In his presence daily live.Chorus:
I surrender all,I surrender all,
All to thee, my blessed Savior,
I surrender all.All to Jesus I surrender;
Make me, Savior, wholly thine;
Let me feel the Holy Spirit,
Truly know that thou art mine.All to Jesus I surrender,
Lord, I give myself to thee,
Fill me with thy love and power,
Let thy blessing fall on me.
Sometimes I remember my dreams. (I cannot know if I ever forget a dream!) The first thing that came to mind this morning was: What does “all” mean in this hymn? “All to Jesus I surrender – Lord, I give myself to thee”.
Maybe let me put it another way!? Does “all” include:
- the institution of the church? or any institution?
- the desire for certainty in this world? To find absolutes in either the community or the book?
- morality?
- duty?
- family?
- other people?
Anyway …
this solitary life 