Day 1 – Covid

I have Covid. It is the second time. Not as bad as the first but still a little more than annoying.

So, I thought I would keep a journal of these seven days alone. Today (Day 2) will be the first Sunday Mass I have missed since I last had Covid.

Yesterday (Day 1) was a day of sleep. I woke feeling awful, so I thought I should take a Covid test. No surprise, it was positive. And before you ask, I have no idea where I caught it. I took my medication, went back to bed and slept most of the day. I did order food from the supermarket which will be delivered Tuesday.

So, what now? I think I will take my medication and go back to bed. Yes, reading would be great but I just do not have the mental energy at the moment.

seelsorge

As we look back on the ordinary, not outstanding, anchoress, we visualize a single lady of some spiritual acumen, living a life of prayer, study, work, and spiritual guidance, in a cottage by the church, while she herself submits to the guidance of the parish priest. There are no “vows”, no exaggerated austerity or poverty, no special habit. Age for age, is it over-straining the facts to see a hint at the much-needed vocation for the many devout Anglican ladies whose spiritual gifts are now so shamefully wasted? It is very wrong for these ladies to force themselves to aspire to a monastic vocation which they know they do not really have. It is worse still when their gifts are squandered on “parish work” of very doubtful value. Is the possibility of some modern adaptation of the anchoress, primarily the spiritual guide of others, so very remote? It is, after all, a typical English compromise to which not a few loyal laywomen are already leaning. But, without pride of position, they need authority and recognition.

Martin Thornton, English Spirituality, 170

Sidestep the rather outdated language: the enclosed solitary as a person engaged in seelsorge. An outsider who can engage people on their pilgrimage with Jesus. And a person who can return to their chapel and bring these people before Jesus in prayer. When we move that reality to the modern age, is the internment.a place for seelsorge? (Personally, I would like to return to handwritten letters, but that is not the case for everyone.)

So, the mission statement of the anchorite is: prayer, mortification, and seelsorge.

maybe?!

Daily writing prompt
Is your life today what you pictured a year ago?

I don’t remember what I thought a year ago, but I think the answer is “no.” There have been many changes this year, some easier and some unexpected. If there was perfect future vision, what would life be like?

The reality is that I live now. I feel stable and balanced. Yes, I could be doing better, but I could also be doing a lot worse.

do you believe in aliens?

Completely random question! The first thing that hits me is “believe”. What does it mean in this context? Perhaps I will leave that question for another post.

Absolutely. I think there is intelligent life outside of Earth. All the theological questions aside, why would God only create humans here? And, to paraphrase Bill & Ted, why would movies lie to us? An encounter would raise some interesting questions concerning our assumptions.

Anyway, do you believe in aliens?

everything

Daily writing prompt
What is one thing you would change about yourself?

Everything! I have never liked “me”. I would not say I hate me, but I do not like me. If I were to meet me, I would most likely think I am aloof, prickly, and just plain weird. I am also socially and physically awkward, like to rant about completely random stuff, and am a poor dresser. I should say that I am working on it, but that would be a lie.

pietism?

Every one is very willing to be a servant of Christ; but no one will consent to be His follower. And yet He says: “If any man serve me, let him follow me.” (John 12:26). Hence, he who truly serves and loves Christ, will also follow him; and he who loves Christ, will also love the example of His holy life, His humility, meekness, patience, as well as the cross, shame, and contempt which He endured, although the flesh may thereby suffer pain.

Johann Arndt

… to be a contemplative

To be a contemplative Church means:

  • To be deeply rooted in Christ as a branch in the vine, through prayer and worship, word and sacrament;
  • To be sustained in joy and hope in the midst of a suffering world;
  • To seek the continual grace and renewal of the Holy Spirit in our lives;
  • To value deep wisdom and offer meaning;
  • To take our theology seriously as dialogue with God as well as talk about God;
  • To live in healthy rhythms of prayer and rest and work and be fully human;
  • To be good news in an over active and busy world;
  • To offer the gift of silence, still places and moments of encounter with the living God;
  • To listen deeply to ourselves, to the world in which we live and to one another;
  • To discern God’s call to us as individuals and communities;
  • To wrestle with God;
  • To surrender our doing in order to make space for stillness and dwelling, that God might be free to do and act within us.
Diocese of Oxford

morning!

Daily writing prompt
Are you more of a night or morning person?

I am most definitely a morning person. I like to get up early, before sunrise, and enjoy the silence and solitude. I do all meaningful writing, thinking, and praying in the morning. It is also cooler in the morning, which I prefer. If I interact with people, it has to be in the morning. Medical appointments and shopping are for the morning.

I am no good after 3 p.m. My mind simply stops working. I like to relax by reading novels or listening to audiobooks. Sometimes I watch a little TV. No people after 3 p.m.! In fact, I use the “screen time” on my phone to limit access after that time. And I go to bed early – with the sunset in winter and a little before in the summer.